I found smiling through it such a practised act. The last two days have been really hard. Gritted through it by sheer will. it does not helped when I had to do what I dont really want to do. I think I should pat myself in the back. Such a star performance i think.

The memories were too raw I realised even though the chapters were already closed. It was over indeed a long time ago but heck,the memories were something so hard to turn off. Finding such a coincidence and then the finding out just took its toll. I know the corner to run to and licked the wounds. I need the numbness.