The only place that seems to be perfect at the moment is when retiring to the dream world.alas,even that seems beyond the very grasp of my fingers.where is the sleep that beckons me to a perfect world?the place where I retire to sweet moments,where every dream of mine is fulfilled,where my pockets were deeply lined with tons and tons of money to do as i please?where for that few hours of sleep bliss,i am truly happy and would wake up smiling.I yearn for those days again.Where once after the beautiful dreams,i would wake up with smiles,praise Allah swt for the wonderful morning,bounce out of bed and ready to face the world. Now,all my lethargic self would like to do is just crawl back in bed hoping for a few more moments of respite.

The plaster of smile on the face is getting harder to maintain.i fear when it cracks and never be whole again.the moments when i truly and sincerely smile no longer exist all the time and it only happens so sporadically.Screw those people and situations who put me to such state.

what will snap me out of this?i need my beauty sleep,i need my smiles and sunshine.