-The 2 weeks Despair-
3 weeks ago,I was smiling.
22nd sept,Went out on a date after so long.
Okie,it was not supposed to be a
date but a date nonetheless coz
we did go out to watch movie,though
it was a spur of the moment thingy.
Had drinks and all.
Happy coz its been a while since my
'door' closed on me and didnt get to know
anyone.
Was whining to Fir abt how its been a
while since i dated,then my wish got
fulfilled.Hahaa...something abt wishing
aloud.Remember...be careful when u wish
aloud.
Followed with a state of euphoria for a while
then it hit!the anxiety,the doubts,the freaking
out.He was supposed to be back by sun the
following week.msged him but no reply.I thot i
lost a fren again...didnt know whether i could
handle it.the pain of that.
Doubts of whether i was at fault,doubts of whether
I hurt his feelings in any way,doubts of whether
I am so 'unappealing' that he rather not befren me
after our encounter.Was wondering if i am such a
turn off...cant bear that thot though..too
depressing...Then the anger....
Wat the hell!!!msging him and no response...so be it!
if he does not one to befren me,there are a lot of
desperados out there...he's just one in a million.
Such thots run in my head in such news flash modes....
Was at one pt worried he got involved in an accident on
way home..checked newspapers...nothing....despair went
on.2 weeks past and i resigned myself to the thot i have
lost a new fren.Fren lost before i could even developed
a proper frenship.
Then,he msged me after 2 long weeks.too shocked to even
msged him back for a while.He's ok!!!he gave some
explanations and realised i've jumped the gun too
soon....should have known there must be a reason.
There was.must remember hida's words....never FOBUFO
(freak out before u find out).
He called me and my 2 weeks ended.Happy again.
